Hey! I’m Tessie!
I help people like you finally create a peaceful relationship with food and body so you can become the next best version of yourself through my private and group coaching programs.
YOU'RE IN THE RIGHT PLACE IF YOU...
Feel inconsistent with your eating and fitness, and don't know how to find a balance between "balls to the wall" and "crap, I skipped the gym all week!"
Cringe when you get compliments on your appearance because inside your head, all you hear is, "I'm not as pretty/skinny/sexy as her" "yeah right" or "are they just saying that to be nice?"
Feel like you try to eat your problems away. Emotional eating feels so good! Until it doesn't 🙁 You promise yourself "just one cookie" or "this is the last time"... and the next thing you know you're wiping frosting from the 4 cupcakes you just inhaled off your face.
Have had some recent life events or changes that have you feeling stressed, lacking time and energy for self-care, proper nutrition and exercise. #girlbossproblems
Feel like your environment (people you're around most, office snacks/treats, social environment like eating out) inhibits you from being at your healthiest.
Have you ever put yourself in a situation to be at risk of things going wrong, and thought, “oh, but that would never happen to me… maybe to someone else, but not me."
Well, I found myself in that exact position, humbled to be the ‘someone else’ in what I call my quarter life crisis.
I had been an athlete since the age of 4 you see. That’s right, 4! Maybe even 3 ½ . This is when I started my 10-year journey as a gymnast. I competed up until about age 13 and the next 10 years were full of every other sport on the planet: tennis, volleyball, cheerleading, crew, track, basketball, soccer, and hip-hop dancing.
Then, life changed: I graduated from college. I was not a collegiate cheerleader anymore. I didn’t have a coach telling me what my goal was or what to do.
I felt lost and had total sport withdrawl.
People started telling me I had "a great shape for bodybuilding." So, I googled and found an oh-so-fit power couple who trained people for bodybuilding and fitness shows. I called ‘em up and I was on my way to a lot of growth (and also a lot of lesson-learning.)
Little red flags popped up along the way.
One of my closest friends stopped talking to me when I started training because she felt people commonly developed eating disorders and mental issues from doing these shows.
“But that would never happen to me.”
I took thermogenics (fat-burning pills), appetite suppressants, and 1,000mg of caffeine a day. This isn't abnormal for competition prep, but I have a congenital heart condition, and should NEVER have been on so many pills that all had one prominent effect: elevated heart rate!
The red flags became a burning, scarlet, flashing red with sirens.
After a month, I remember thinking, "I don’t want to lose anymore weight." But, if I went to weigh-in with my trainers and wasn't at least down one pound each week, they wouldn’t let me compete.
I followed the diet:
- I cooked all my meals at home.
- I didn’t hang out with friends or family.
- I was crying everyday because my body and brain were so carb-deprived.
- I felt physically weak even though I was "strong."
- A typical day: I did cardio, coached cheerleading part-time, worked part-time as an teaching assistant, went back to the gym to lift, and went to sleep for another 9-10 hours.
- Worst of all, I'd become the ‘someone else’ I thought I was exempt from becoming. I became someone who made sure to burn 5 extra calories at night if I'd indulged that day on a piece of gum.
I'd got "there."
I was in this weird place of being super proud of my body and also not wanting to draw attention to it...
- "Wow, you’re disappearing!"
- "Where’d your ass go?"
- "Your arms are really lean, and like half the size they used to be."
There was a bittersweet tug when these comments would hit me, because deep down I knew this wasn’t a sustainable look for my body, but the other part of me truly fed off of this validation and felt a shame at the thought of looking like my "old self."
Likewise, although it was psychologically painful to see, my weight eventually evened out. I went back to where I was before I started the whole bodybuilding thing to begin with. And although it was a hard decision, I let go of the validation I'd loved hearing and vowed never to do another show again. I've never looked back and have learned to embrace my body for what it is, how it makes me feel, and what it lets me do.
I want to help you do the same.
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